Seeking Life

Seek, above all, for a game worth playing. De Ropp

Your Seeking is about answers to questions like… Who or what am I? What is the Purpose of Life? Why are we here? Why am I here now in this particular situation? What is the difference between my Soul and my Spirit? Where is God? And how might I get in touch with Him or Her?

Following my father’s death in 1969 I began in earnest at my own “Seeking”. I had awoken to my father’s conditioning in me and realised that so far I was only fulfilling his ideas and ideals, and that was a shock. I was not happy, and was not sure what could make me happy. Or indeed what ‘happiness’ its self really meant.

Seeking entails the Search for Wisdom, Knowledge and the true “Self”. Seeking manifests in introspecting, reading, experimenting, and wandering. And Seeking manifests in different stages. Its most essential stage is a dissatisfaction with your ‘status quo’, that leads you to go further, beyond your current levels of achievement, looking for something else, that’s missing, something higher, more ‘holy’, something that can bring ultimate sustainable fulfilment. If that’s possible.

To begin with its plain to see that we all must first pursue the prerequisite needs for air, water, food, warmth, and enough to survive. Our basic physiological needs, precede our higher needs. Ghandhi famously observed that “Even God can’t talk to a hungry man, unless its in terms of bread.” The struggle to survive as an individual, requires others. “No man is an island” And so, we seek safety, family, tribe, identity, belonging, power and prowess. These basic and middle order ‘life games’ are integrated, and then transcended, into higher games of self-esteem and self-actualisation, and for some, self-transcendence. Relevant Authors included…

Maslow, the humanist psychologist saw the Pyramid of Human Needs. (more later)
Scott Peck, ‘pop’ psychologist wrote The Road Less Travelled and A Different Drum.
Victor Frankl wrote with great understanding The Will To Meaning & Logotherapy.
Karl G Jung, great analytical psychologist had Memories, Dreams and Reflections.
Herman Hesse wrote beautifully of the ultimate synthesis, the Glass Bead Game.
Kahlil Gibran’s masterpiece The Prophet, is a Synergy of Spirituality and Wisdom.
Robert De Ropp wrote of a Master Game. Seek above all a game worth playing.

These were the types of knowledge books we read as “Seekers’ in the 60’s and 70’s. Philosophy, literally the love of knowledge and wisdom, can cover multiple subjects. “Seeker” type books are ultimately spiritual, about self-realisation, self-transcendence and integrity.

The penultimate Seekers Books are about how to Realise God in our lives. These are the great books at the heart of each of the great religions that include The Bible, Gospels, the Koran, the Bhagavad Gita, the Tao Te Ching and multiple others. Self-transcendence can be regarded as the highest endeavour of Humanity because it Seeks to “Know Thy God-Self” – Source, and Destiny, of our Evolutionary Journey.

This Evolutionary Ascent of Humanity serves one Purpose. God-Self-Knowledge.

GOD – Source, Consciousness and Creativity – SEEKS TO KNOW GOD : IN US.

Life on Earth recreates in infinite varieties, and levels of Consciousness, upwards. Humanity sits atop the evolutionary pinnacle, capable of reflection, and inspiration. Humanity’s Highest Purpose is to Realise God. How Real, Present, Great, GOD IS. But we’re a bit ahead in our story about Seeking. We sought for ways to know more. Seekers in the 60’s and 70’s were about the ‘New Age’ and Hippy Woodstock movement away from gross materialism and towards the Natural, Free and Spiritual, whatever that might mean. But there are steps, diversions, and dead-ends you might encounter on your Freedom Path.

The prerequisites we all require as Seekers of Truth are Sincerity and Persistence. We require ‘sincerity’ because there are dangers that may take you into destruction. It seems my own sincerity was to protect me and show me the dangers in my Seeking. Those dead ends were to include social drugs like marihuana, cocaine, psychedelics, and perhaps much more sinister potentials were false gurus like TM and Rajneesh, and in a similar vein, was spiritualism. These may show us signs of progress only to be fruitless or worse. Lets start with the way of drug ingestion as a way of enlightenment. They may give window glimpses or ideas, but they are not doors.

Spirituality and psychology and psychiatry have long been intermixed with drug experimentation and use. For a sensitive soul like mine, with a poetic temperament, marihuana was a calming and social drug of choice in my early surfing and Seeking days. Alcohol, prescription drugs and the like were of no or minor interest, however the advent of LSD from England raised the bar for psycho-active experience.

Surfers being attuned to Nature’s forces and in touch with their physical body states were used to seeking flow states of attunement, getting tubed, ‘at one’ for intense moments of deeply quiet, yet exhilarating, experiential Presence. Routinely surfers respect Mother Nature, Mother Earth, a natural healthy life-style and the very potent energies of Grandfather Ocean.

About 1981 I encountered and used LSD for the first time and found it gives tremendously vivid states of perception, particularly around Nature. In the city, or in a room, it was intense but not as joyful or sublime as being in natural surroundings. Like the saying ‘to see a Heaven in a wild flower’ these hallucinogenic states of peak perception were often ultra beautiful, and beyond words. And beyond words they spoke of the Divine Origin of everything. And in gratitude we could see that Yes everything in our World is meaningful, is natural, is good. But following such peak experiences the great intensity level dropped into an exhausted trough and the world went from infinite colours into dour grey. It might take days to recharge and another ‘trip’ soon after was not advised as depletion might lead into torment..

Of one particular positive LSD experience I would like to share. A favourite place for us as surfers was Jakes Point near the tiny township of Kalbarri, North of Geraldton. Here is the Kalbarri National Park which features huge typography and abundant Nature. All the few lsd or acid trips I took involved at least one eagle or other birds of prey.

Kalbarri is a part of the traditional lands of the Nanda people, in the Yamatji region of Western Australia. The entry sign ‘Kaju Yatka’ is the Nanda words for ‘sky’ and ‘to walk’.

Kalbarri sits at a three way junction between the Murchison river, the continental coast and the great Indian Ocean. Here there are great cliffs, promontories and deep gorges in the vivid red earth, as well as heavenly views into the infinite night sky. The Murchison River periodically empties one of the largest catchment areas of any river in Australia. Desert dry for most if not all of the year so its only some rare times it empties out a vast deluge of red muddy river water that drives and spews out like a giant eruption into the Indian Ocean for many miles. Some of us took a quite dangerous rafting trip into the spectacular gorges one year and nearly lost one soul.

Dolphins, whales, sharks and very large fish of all sorts are all at play hereabouts. It is a primordial place, teeming with Life in the Ocean, on the reef and up into the scrub, as well as overhead in pristine atmosphere, beautiful land and sea birds slip by.

Jakes Point offers one of the more intense ‘go for it’ surf rides in Australia. Typically the wave sucks out steeply over a shallow and sharp reef. There’s no hesitation or holding back, you drop in, pull round and tuck up and then accelerate like a sling shot. To add interest there are often heavy undulations in the wave face as you career towards the far shoulder. Its quite a rush and in big wave conditions it becomes impossible to access or exit Jakes Point without real danger. Surfers have been rescued by boats at times when the increasing swells ‘close out’ the bay.

To come up here in those early days, park in the sand dunes, overlooking the point, to surf, and sleep in the combi, was the antithesis of city life. We watched the dogs on super alert and in the company of a trusted friend, we sat and shared about our lives. LSD briefly amplifies your perceptions and depth of experience. Walking, strolling, pausing to look deeply, and really see into these shallow reef pools of life energy was illuminating. You see the Evolutionary Journey, up out of the sea onto land, from shell-fish to fish, to crab, to bird and rabbit, to canine, to people. Here was Life’s miracle. One worn through shell I found had the unmistakable profile of an eagle’s head. The eagle or Garuda is the mount of Vishnu, who is the God of evolution and spiritual ascent. I kept it and these days our company logo represents those archetypal curves.

However it is the Night Sky after sunset at Kalbarri that affords you one of the clearest views, up into the vast eternity of the Universe. To look into the apparently infinite boundless vista of Time and Space, and of stars and nebula far reaching, is to glean something of the magnitude and magnificence of the Matrix. It is to stand agog at God’s creativity and it is to feel something of the high eternal Joy of the Creatrix.

The Sahaja yogis understand that our brain is like the Virata, the manifest Universe of Stars and Galaxies. Its said we have more complexity, connections and numbers of synapses in each of our brains than there are stars in the known Universe. Truly we are made in the Image of God. Such hallucinogenic peaks of course are followed by the flats. It was a window, to glimpse through, not a doorway to step through and stay. But it was a glimpse into infinity. And you cannot forget such an insight.

Spirituality is certainly in part about one’s soul surviving physical death, and so we sought understanding about the phenomena of life and death, and about after-death soul survival experience, in great books like Lyall Watson’s Supernature and The Romeo Error.

The reality of reincarnation is no mystery to much of Humanity. It helps explain our affinities, and attractions. It reasons that we all arrive with our innate temperament, predispositions, aptitudes and abilities, that surely must have been acquired before, previously, so as to be so present in us, on arrival, and how we attract our family.

Also it shows how we are pre-disposed to different activity, vocations and destinies. And perhaps we recall past people, and places, and things from previous lifetimes. And if we are here re-visiting incarnate life, this entails an ‘after life’after this life.

All great sustainable cultures apparent on Earth recognise there is an after-life. Most people have had a sense of ghosts, spirits and other phenomena around. Most people have a sense of intuition, and a subtle and/or psychic awareness. Most people are ‘re-minded’ by something or someone, of somebody ‘passed’. We may acknowledge people have died, but we can also understand that’s not an end. Typically ancestors must be acknowledged, respected and sometimes worshipped. It appears we are conditioned, and perhaps sometimes prompted by unseen others and relatives.

This brings us to Spiritualism, about dead spirits and ghosts, as distinct from Spirituality which brings us to God, the Holy Spirit, Deities, Angels and Saints. Essentially spiritualism is about individual ghosts or entities that we may confer with. Essentially Spirituality is the Reflection of God in us, the Light of God’s Life, in us.

Essentially Religion is centrally about beliefs, constructs and ideas about God. Essentially Spirituality is about Knowledge, Realisation and Communion with God. Religions largely inhabit the Mind and Ego, and gives rise to more Ego and Mind. Spirituality largely inhabits the Awareness, and gives rise to Peace, Wisdom and Grace.

Spirit Knows – God Is – Truth Sat, and Attention, Chit, and Joy/Beauty, Ananda. Philosophers seek Wisdom. Artists seek Beauty. Spiritual seekers seek God-Self. Seekers might begin with parlour games, like Ouija boards and séances with readers. Americans had shown interest in spiritualism, including Abraham Lincoln and wife. I had belief that we all survived physical death and disembodied souls were/are real. Also my feeling was these can move and know about people and things in the world. For instance if a ghost can read your mind and you pose a question that only you know the answer to its no magic that they can tell the answer you were thinking of.

Its also quite probable that disembodied souls with unfulfilled desires can effect us. The possibility of speaking with ghosts is a strong step forward in our spirituality, in that it provides some experiences that suggest that we as disembodied entities survive death. The reality of disembodied people knowing more than us though is questionable.

Whilst not especially convinced of the usefulness of dead souls and other medium ‘readings’ I had read about a “Sleeping Prophet’, Edgar Cayce, and was interested. Edgar was capable of submitting himself into an unconscious state at will and whilst out of ordinary consciousness was able to answer questions about many many things. Some of these answers were helpful with health questions and interestingly whenever Edgar’s facility was used for material gain his own health suffered badly as a result. There was a profoundly moral theme that ran through his readings and advice but no breakthrough practices on how to grow spiritually although Kundalini was mentioned.. (In more recent times and now there are lots of channelled readings and books.) I already had a sort of sensitivity to vibrations and energy and some precognitions. Others I knew were playing with Ouija board and contacting or generating ‘answers’.

My own intuition was already a strong suit in my own temperament and astrology. Catholicism had instilled the idea of a reality of angels, and of course ‘life after life’. At the time just before my first trip to India, I was also interested to learn about the Ouija board, as there were some ‘other worldly’ and after life influences apparent. I was already convinced that I had lived before, but I wasn’t a ‘spiritualist’. I had been in houses that really seemed haunted, with mystery sounds.

At the time I was hoping to fund my girlfriend Rachel and I for a good look at India. We would need an amount that I had calculated for the trip and I was a bit short of it. I was also keen to test my own understanding about the use of Ouija and its reliability.

So, my first serious test of the Ouija board experience followed with a few friends. We gathered at their house and I sincere in purpose, but very sceptical, had a séance. My rationale was that a trip to India was auspicious, in line with my serious Seeking. My interest in Ouija was; can these occurrences, or ghosts, give reliable information or help? My idea revolved around making a bet at the horse races in Perth, with the idea that any winnings, I needed about $1000 more maybe, could fund the India trip expenses.

But let me explain the situation. My father had been a reasonably successful ‘punter’. He had also purchased quality horses in New Zealand, with his Perth trainer, and won. A good day out at the races was a usual occurrence and if he won, which he often did, we would stop for a sumptuous Chinese banquet afterwards when heading home. So I was well versed in bookmaker betting at the course, and I felt I had some inside info. Good horses in our country towns, like Geraldton, where we had once lived near the racetrack, would likely start racing in Perth city, where the stakes were much higher. Our family knew a family there of horse owners and trainers, and they had a young particularly good horse that was expected to run and win in Perth, at this ‘ouija’ time.

My first Ouija board séance got in touch with a strong response from some entity. I thought to ask this energy or entity about their powers. Can you see the Future? “Yes” came the answer, as the pointer was pushed there on the board without effort. (I was alert to the fact that disembodied souls could be simply reading our thoughts, when we asked questions.) And can they see the Past? “Yes” again as the pointer mysteriously moved it-self. And then the board spelled out “But I like to play”. So is this horse going to win? “Yes” 

As I went to the track that very next weekend I thought maybe the stars have aligned here? Maybe some beginners luck? Maybe some rewards to enable us to go to India? Maybe some affirmations that yes ghosts were real and might know more than us? The unexpected comment “Yes but I like to play” still resonated, so I was cautious. So I decided the best way to bet was ‘in concession’ so that if it ran second or third, I would get my stake money back, and if it won, I would earn my India trip money.

So – What Happened? – I hear you ask dear reader. Most improbably, almost unbelievably, the horse ran wide when its saddle slipped during the race, and it nearly careered off the track and then recovered to run almost last. Money lost – completely! I quietly fumed realising how I had been tricked and played with by our ghostly entity.

My understanding and faith after this in the ‘after-life’ was clarified and confirmed, and I found my previous reluctance to play with any deceased entities, was for me indeed well founded. Without any experience myself I had heard that some entities or ‘jinn’ were powerful and able to empower usually gullible younger men to ‘sell their compliance’ to become powerful illusionists and magicians, that could impress many, ensuring money and fame. Such stories like the ‘meeting at the crossroads’ where skillsets like musical virtuosity can be bargained for by doing deals with powerful spirit entity or the devil, seems funny. And yet the arena of powerful entities seducing, abusing and controlling people has included false gurus, whose effects on some followers is truly negative, and may even run to multiple life possessions.

To my way of understanding, lingering souls are not necessarily much smarter than us. They may perceive what we are thinking or have in our minds but they aren’t Seekers. In fact I suspect most are unfulfilled souls, who missed their opportunity to pass on. They remain entangled and have desires they must try to live out vicariously, in us. Like many humans their egoistic desiresare to dominate, control and ‘play’ with others.

Many addicts have said their intense cravings really feel like somebody else’s desires. Most religious and indigenous services will use a smoking ceremony to clear places. All the great religions seek to counsel followers against the deadly sins, and devils. Typically Earth-bound treasures are offered to give up their pursuit or belief in God. Christ was tempted by the Devil, with all the worldly riches and enticements.

The antidote to these tests in your spiritual ascent is again sincerity in your Pursuit. The assistance required to find your Path is to find a true Guru, who will help you. There are many stories about the lengths Seekers have gone to, to become a disciple. But also there have been stories about the destruction brought by false teachers. The true role of a true Guru is to help you to become your own teacher/guru. But a good teacher it may be said, should help you to become your own master and your own Guru. Like a true healer should assist and empower your own ability to heal.

In India, we might say that there are many, many gurus, and traditionally these include your parents, family members, musical and dance teachers and many others. Essentially these teachers and guides first alert you to, and keep you to, the Dharmas, the rules or disciplines.

The purpose of Dharmas, guidelines and boundaries, are to protect you from sin and to keep us in Balance. The development of self-mastery and virtues are the reward for keeping to Dharma. The ultimate reward for spirituality is Moksha, ultimate liberation.

Indian spirituality began to make its way more into the West in the 50s, 60s and 70s. There were a variety of gurus, both good and false, from both the East and West. Fortunately my sincerity seemed to protect my intuition in choices and some ‘chance’ encounters proved quite illuminating about some of the major false gurus. You shall know them by their fruit. was an apt pre-warning.

Two obvious popularists, who were flawed in their teachings and effects, were revealed to me. I met by timely chance a sister of a follower who made an indelible impression on me of how diabolical an effect a false guru can have on a seeker. This girl herself was completely upset at the devastation wrought on her sister by a guru/path involvement. It was a stark warning that stood up in my attention. I was already sceptical of any ‘pay as you go model’ that characterised some as for the rich and gullible mainly. That you should pay a fortune for a secret mantra that scholars of Sanskrit called worthless and meaningless stood out. The Beatles, long courted and touted by one guru group, all veered sharply away completely and John openly ridiculed and sang about the falsity.

Other gurus had a more attractive model of complete moral abandonment and advocated and employed hedonistic excess as a way to ‘freedom’. This proved of interest to those with more base interests. Some of these false gurus I would like to call them were real powerful figures who ensnared followers and entrenched negative traits that subtly were damaging to their ability to discern, and to attempt ‘the Great Work’ of Self-Realisation, of spiritual Ascent and ultimate Liberation. Followers from many gurus have found it really difficult to establish themselves in Sahaja Yoga Kundalini meditation where the prerequisite is pure spiritual desire, and sustained application.

One of the first positive yoga teachers was Yogananda, who wrote the book “Autobiography of a Yogi.” His path of simple Bhakti, of worship for “God, Christ and Gurus” was an inspiration to many. I went to his SRF Self Realisation Fellowship centre in Perth and read his lessons. And so my Seeking advanced via the Gospels to the Bhagavad Gita, from prayer to meditation, from seeking a saviour, to seeking my Spirit, or God-Self.

The Adya Bookshop was a Seekers bookstore in Northbridge in Perth in the late 70’s. It was on a corner and had several steps up to the front door. I lingered there one day just as a big green Mercedes drew around the corner, with a Western man driving. In the back seat sat a fully turbaned Swami, of some denomination. Our eyes did not meet but the whole scene impressed me at that moment. (I did not realise then, how in the future, I would become the driver of a big Mercedes with the greatest Yogini of all time, our Divine Mother, Shri Mataji, in the back seat.) I proceeded inside and after a long stay emerged with a book, about destiny, and a pack of Aquarian Tarot cards.

The book was “The Pursuit Of Destiny” by Muriel Bruce Hasbrook, originally written in 1941. I already had some superficial knowledge of astrology, numerology and the Tarot but this book opened my understanding to a beautiful fusion of these. This book details how the 36 ‘decanates’ or ten day cycles, in turn populated the 12 Astrology signs, giving each of these a greater insight and overview of The Universal Astrology Wheel, and so by implication a more detailed understanding of birthdays in the year and the ever-returning cyclical Journey of Human Reincarnation on Earth. Within this book’s insight was that each ten-day cycle had a card from 36 Minor Arcana cards of the Tarot. Each of the four Tarot minor arcane card suits has an Ace or Indicator and nine numbered cards, like an ordinary playing deck, of 2 to 10. The 4 Tarot Suits parallel the playing card suits. Clubs are ‘Flowering’ Wands. (Spiritual Growth and Soul Maturity). Spades are Swords (Intellect = double edged, Thoughts, Knowledge, of Good and Evil, Duality). Hearts are Cups. (the Emotions of the Heart, Feelings, Love) Diamonds are Coins. (Physical Wealth and Material Health)

Tarot then is actually two decks. The Major Arcana is composed of 22 Great cards. 22 is a Master number from Sacred geometry and Birthdate numerology. A Divine harmonic 22 can signify many things like Pi ie 22/7, and so the 3 Nadis, by 7 Chakras (21) of the Subtle Body, plus the Zero, or Source ‘No Mind’ or ‘Mastery’ card, called 0 The Fool, as the 22^nd major arcana or Divine Builder’s card. Or Zero. The Circle and the Zero are both Holistic and Universal, beyond numbers. No Mind is considered as the Turya or Zen 4^th state, of ‘thought-free’ mind, that is liberated in communion or Union, One with the transcendent Source and immanent Present. This state of oneness, or unification, is the state of Union or Yoga and is called Samadhi.

Each Major Arcana card then is suitable as an object or image for concentration, reflection or meditation. The pack I had bought was a beautifully rendered version by artist David Palladini that ‘brings medieval tarot symbolism into the Aquarian Age’. I loved it and together with the deep insights from the book I was compelled to study it all as though it held the keys to my Seeeking. Also I felt déjà vu somehow about it all as if I knew this information from ‘before’ and was only revisiting. After some time I felt really compelled to write and draw up the complete and integrated big wheel chart, not included in the book, showing all the signs, decanates, elements, cards and dates and I was not happy until that task was finally completed.

I did not read Tarot cards for others then, or after. Although I knew well how to. I felt the depth of their symbology, and as I focussed I on them, for instance holding a question in mind, I allowed them to spontaneously cut and open, and I realised they were indeed deeply revealing and at times revelational. The Tarot cards were quite particular as I headed for my date with Destiny, on the 22^nd of April 1983.

I’ve shared already how I was pyramid sitting, praying, meditating and focussed on the Gita of Krishna and Gospels of Christ. From time to time I would consult my tarot cards about my destiny and 3 cards kept revealing themselves. All three were from the archetypal Major Arcana of 22 cards. They, all three, were the only major cards with a base numerology number of Two, out of a total of 78 cards in the whole tarot.

Two in numerology is the Goddess, Great Mother, Divine Power of God the Father, who is One. God the Absolute, transcendent, is mysterious, non-being, Zero, Source. These three major arcana cards kept surfacing together, so much so that I often thought I must have spilt something on them, that made them stick together. I examined them very closely. There was no such thing. The cards were foretelling. Destiny was at hand. My Seeking was to be fulfilled.

My three cards that were signifying were the Major Arcana Cards: the Two of the Goddess, the Eleven of Justice, and Twenty of Last Judgement. 2, 11, 20 = 33. At that stage I did not know the Kundalini, was our individual Mother Goddess. And no insight, that we were about to move into a new Aquarian Age Awareness, of discriminating Vibrations, that does reveal the Will Of God, for you on your hands.

But I was about to find out…. and just before I did I was to realise all will be well.

(Pavan – transcribed from video interview – 2008)

After 10 years of seeking that included all manner of things including astrology, numerology, tarot, divination, mediumship, LSD and unconventional religiosity and spiritual and religious books I was a Seeker, and I had been to India, Kashmir and Nepal and toured around there.

After my first trip to India in 1979 I very much felt that India was the spiritual essence of things but was still concerned and confused about how all of this fitted together. I had read many books, studied the Bhagavad Gita closely and was trying to pray, and do yoga and meditation and so that period of time in the early 80’s, was just prior to getting my Self-Realisation, or Kundalini Sahaja Yoga initiation and awakening. I was humble, for the first time quite humbled, just before getting it. Life was not going the way I would like, and I felt spent, I was ‘out of ammunition’, so to speak.

So a state of humility is appropriate, because ultimately it’s about readiness and willingness to surrender to the Divine, and so in mid April 1983, I first saw Shri Mataji’s photo in the paper with an interview She had given just before She left Perth in March. And reading that interview in print I felt this was somebody absolutely Divine in our world and I wondered what to do next, as I was staying at my mum’s place, because my relationship had fallen apart, and a lot of things had fallen apart in my life at that time. So I picked up a book, opened it up on a random page, as I was often want to do, for input or guidance, and it said…

“God the Father is transcendent beyond the creation. God the Mother is immanent and is doing all the living work. She is the one who cannot, and will not, resist the heartfelt call of a Seeker of Truth” and so for the first time, really in earnest, I started praying to our Holy Mother, God as Mother, the Divine Feminine, for the first time, in a sincere way.

I was not aware then that Shri Mataji in the paper, was that principle, or Deity, incarnate, but I was suddenly super aware as the wind blew in through the bedroom window, the curtain flapped, and the hair stood up on the back of my neck and head, and then and there, suddenly…. I just knew everything was going to be absolutely okay. I was having this experience in my bedroom and I just knew that everything was going to be all right.

Then a few days later, I just picked up the very big Sunday Times and opened it. It fell open on a tiny little text ad hidden away that said Shri Mataji is appearing at a town hall in Rokeby road in Subiaco. That She was to be there that next Friday night. And I just couldn’t believe it, I thought ‘that’s not possible’. She had left according to the first big article I had read you know, and it’s such a tiny ad, how come?’

As it turned out it was a misprint, because it actually was meant to have said a video presentation featuring Her, but that one line was missing from the edit, so it had actually been left out and it was saying She would be there. Anyway I thought I will go to this event at the town hall. So i went off to Rokeby Road in Subiaco to the program, ostensibly to meet Shri Mataji, and I was with a friend, and we arrived, and they said please sit down.